Pregnant again, and still single. I am pretty embarrassed and ashamed about that fact. You really would think I would have given up on trying to find the fairy tale by now, huh? Pretty depressing! Every time I think I have found the "one", it just turns out to be the "same". So here I am pregnant again, another hardship for me and my girls to endure. My youngest two girls are super excited about their new baby sister! My oldest has been there, done that!lol We really struggled when my third daughter was born. We were just starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel again. She just turned four in March, and she is getting to be an independent little lady now. I am working fulltime now, and things were starting to look up for us. Then I had to go and fall in love all over again!
I thought he was great and that God had sent him to me. He was really nice to me in the beginning. I actually let him meet my kids, which I never do! He took an interest in them and told me he would love to be their step dad. I didn't think I would ever meet someone who would want me AND my kids! Things just starting falling into place. Pretty soon, we were talking marriage and meeting with a local preacher.
It wasn't long at all before I became pregnant. I figured we would want to have a baby together after we were married, but I wasn't planning for it to happen so soon. I was shocked, but thought we would be ok. Pretty soon the pregnancy sickness started. I just felt so sick and dizzy and terrible all day everyday. I would come home from work, and have to get right in the bed. I guess that didn't make sense to him. He felt I was lying about being so ill, and took it personally. Of course that hurt me, and I was too sick to deal with any of that craziness. I needed love and support. All I could do was try to stay alive and care for my children until the worst had passed.
He wasn't the same any more with me being ill. I guess the fun and games came to an end for him. That really put me into a deep depression. I knew what a struggle it had been to make it alone with my third daughter. I couldn't believe I was putting my girls through that again!
I thought he was great and that God had sent him to me. He was really nice to me in the beginning. I actually let him meet my kids, which I never do! He took an interest in them and told me he would love to be their step dad. I didn't think I would ever meet someone who would want me AND my kids! Things just starting falling into place. Pretty soon, we were talking marriage and meeting with a local preacher.
It wasn't long at all before I became pregnant. I figured we would want to have a baby together after we were married, but I wasn't planning for it to happen so soon. I was shocked, but thought we would be ok. Pretty soon the pregnancy sickness started. I just felt so sick and dizzy and terrible all day everyday. I would come home from work, and have to get right in the bed. I guess that didn't make sense to him. He felt I was lying about being so ill, and took it personally. Of course that hurt me, and I was too sick to deal with any of that craziness. I needed love and support. All I could do was try to stay alive and care for my children until the worst had passed.
He wasn't the same any more with me being ill. I guess the fun and games came to an end for him. That really put me into a deep depression. I knew what a struggle it had been to make it alone with my third daughter. I couldn't believe I was putting my girls through that again!